Subject: Terry Blumfield
Therapy: 3 hour sessions once a week
(hour in the field, hour to clean up, hour of talking)
As she slowly took a drag of her cigarette she knew that she was asking for trouble. Her scantly clad outfit screamed high class hooker yet her attitude suggested that she would kick your ass if you fucked with her. From behind her eyes there was a fire- a spark that kept you intrigued; wanting to find out more than she'll ever let you know.
She carried herself with a true sense of confidence that made men squirm in their shoes and yet she was humbled by her beauty.
"Are we going to do this or not?!? You are wasting my time..." As she flicked her cigarette onto the sidewalk landing perfectly into the darkened puddle making a sizzling noise as it goes out. Her gaze was filled with fire and brimstone as she stared thru him. He was nothing to her yet she was his everything to him. His goddess that refused him at every turn only granting him release when she was good and ready to. She didn't care for him in the way the he wanted; she cared only about the power and control that she had over him. It gave her great pleasure knowing that he would do anything that she asked of him- if only to please her.
Gently he reached up underneath her skirt and pushed her up against the nearest wall he could find. She allowed this; feeling a rush of excitement at how he was unleashing his passionate side in public up against a wall for all to see. She let out a smirk. She could tell that he was trying so hard to please her; to do good for her but she didn't care if it was good or not. In fact she didn't give two shits about anything that was going on since her mind was elsewhere... regardless how well he performed she was still going to punish him by saying that it was one step better than being fucked by a dog. And she did. tears welted up in his eyes and she grabbed him by the neck and began to choke him.
"What did I say about crying in public like a bitch boy!?! you like it when i choke you? does it make you feel better knowing that at any moment i may tire of you and just end your life here and now? look at me. I will only repeat myself this once: it offends me greatly when you cry as a result of something i did to you. You should be grateful that i even take the time out of my busy schedule to see such a lowly person as yourself. if you want me in your life then stop fucking crying you pansy ass! Act like a man!" She could feel him gasping for breath. he was almost at the point of unconsciousness and she let him go. What a complete waste of fucking time!... when will he learn that he cant cry his way thru life. stupid idiot.!
"We're done for this session Terry. Take a minute to compose yourself and we will work out the particulars of what you discovered about yourself in a moment ill see you back at the office in say about an hour? " he nodded, "Relax this time it took you a lot longer to cry than normal. you had to resort to being choked in order to clam down which shows progress!"
As a sexologist I study sex and everything related to that. Think one part psychologist and two parts Dominatrix mixed with love and trust and you sort of get the idea of what I am trying to accomplish. My patients are all individually certifiable sex nut cases but with my help that are functioning adults coping with the daily stress of their lives. Sexology is something that i find myself drawn to and it has become a sort of a calling for me to help these poor people survive in this world without harming others. Sometimes I will role play in order to get at the root cause of the concern. Sometimes I am just the onlooker listening to what they have to say other times I have to touch myself in order to get a rise out of people but it is always done consensually and with care.
Terry's case is a puzzling one: he has a Madonna/whore complex that reinforces his depression with feelings of persecution and gets off to women emasculating him. mix in a fetish for being choked and you got a world class top notch astrophysicist who is a complete wuss. most people have no idea that hes this way. but when he gets into a relationship this tends to scare off the potential mates. I admit that Terry is getting better but the crying is still an issue that needs to be addressed. At the office my attire is business professional and that helps Terry deal with the Madonna part of his complex. He can treat me like an equal and put me on a pedestal without feeling guilty that he just fucked me in public. His respect for women runs so deep that he even feels remorse when he has sex with a woman; prostitutes included. He even tips on top of what he owes them. In one of our previous sessions i suggested that he try dating a prostitute. Unfortunately she suited all his needs but one- the pristine side of her wasn't as Madonna like as he wanted.
"Hi Terry! So how are you doing? Has that experience helped you see why it is that you brake down and cry?"
"Yes Kenzie I've figured it out. I have such a driving need to be the best lover towards you; to please you and when you say things like i barely fucked you better than a dog it does make me angry. instead of anger it manifests as tears and as a result i become a blubbering fool. I liked how you used my fetish to calm me down. Smart of you to pick up on the dominating after the fact. I felt better when you choked me which is different. I wasn't left feeling so miserable and pathetic Doc."
"That sounds like progress Terry! Maybe the need for women to emasculate you is dwindling. I choose that statement about the dog to purposely get underneath your skin. Interesting that you got angry on the inside and showed tears on the outside. it sounds like the emasculation isn't something that turns you on anymore Terry. You should be pleased with yourself that you don't need to be emasculated to get off with a woman. focus and concentrate on the fact that you want to please your woman and you want to be the best lover towards her and if she says something that makes you cry tell her to choke you to calm you down. Today was a breakthrough Terry. We've discovered that it isn't an emasculation or a Madonna/ whore complex as much as we originally thought. You just need the woman to be complementary towards your sexual prowlness and to choke you at the end to finish you off if you even need that. Next session we'll try a more positive reinforcement approach and see if there is any difference. See you next week at my home Terry!"
"Thanks again Kenzie for everything. You really do know what you're doing with me. You think that I'm ready for an actual bedroom experience with you Doc? I'll see you same time next week at your house. Please be gentle with me Kenz I'm trusting you."
"I wouldn't have it any other way Terry. Remember you are safe with me in whatever we do together even if its not always moral. I'm here to help you in any way that I can Terry. If you need me for anything you have my number. Be safe and drive safely Terry."
