Let me explain a few things about me: First off I'm a connoisseur of the human body in all it's lovely and delicious forms. I enjoy seeing a naked person's body whether it be a male, female or anything in between. Nudity in my opinion is something to be unashamed of. In fact we should all be celebrating the feeling of being naked. Its a beautiful thing seeing the curvature and the lines that we were given or had lovingly enhanced. Pornography, erotica, burlesque are all boldly beautiful concepts to me. They fascinate me just like strippers and escorts simply because what they do is exquisitely precise that i consider it to be a work of art. Human emotions for good or bad also intrigue me and excite me. It amazes me that thru a few well placed touches and words a person can get whatever they so desired... if properly unchecked such power can be deadly and that's why i make it a point to not give in to my beast so to speak. So that is what i have focused on for the majority of my life; refining these qualities so that i can be any and everything that i need to be for you... for you see that's the game that I like to play the most. Adapt myself to each person i meet and befriend so that our relationship becomes special and unique. I don't usually have the same type of relationship they are all different between us. That way when i say that i love them for who they are then I'm not lying. It naturally starts with me finding at least one redeemable quality within them that sparks the curiosity to want to get to know them then the fun begins. I just have a little bit of fun and push the envelope to see how the progression of our friendship will go. some choose a path of including sexual favors others just want the opportunity to just hold me but my favorite are the ones that accept me and just want to be my friend. Sometimes i just like being myself and not what others deem required in our relationship. Yes they are aware that I create this fantasy world for them and they appreciate it... but sometimes it can feel eerily real and that's when things get interesting. Some people would call this type of behavior manipulative or deceiving but it isn't. I'm not doing anything that you didn't want me to do. If you wanted me to stop then you would have said something. Remember that you can't rape the willing and it seemed to me that you were quite willing. I see the niche where i fit in and i adapt accordingly based on what that person needs. They'll tell you what they want. you just have to be prepared to give it to them which can be hard. But what I'm really after is much harder to come by nowadays: trust. It isn't easy for someone to expose their darker side without criticism and disgust especially if it is more of a sexual nature... that why I do what I do. If you are my friend I love you. If i love you that sometimes means that you may receive psyical moments of my love for you. I may grope you in your sleep but I'll make it up to you by finishing you off. I'm not a porn star by any means just someone who likes to better their self in all things regrading sex. No my pussy is not loose; quite the opposite really. One finger does plenty of penetration to the point of orgasm so you can imagine what my reaction is when i have a penis inserted inside of me. you get my point. If i can know you sexually, and by that i mean the way that you think sexually, then i have a better understanding of the person that i am dealing with. No i do not get with all of my friends as many people have so accused me of. only the worthy ones which are few and far between. My husband and I have an understanding and as long as it isn't too many he allows it and since your curious i have 2 at the moment and yes they know about each other. Only thing they have in common is me. Girls do not count but i have 3... we all help to relieve each others stress and do what their guys wont so its a win win situation. I like going to fetish clubs and events. It brings out my Voyeuristic tendencies because i like to watch. I like to soak in a beautiful naked body with my eyes so that i can recall it later when I'm alone. No not a sex fiend. not a horny all the time bitch although i am more vocal about it than most when I'm horny but I show a lot of self control and restraint when you meet me in person. It takes me a while to warm up to new people. For me in particular i do not trust so i search for people that i can trust. Sex is also a way for me to express myself. to show the person that i am with that they are pleasing me. that they're taking away the pain of horniness and filling it with the release of my orgasm which always makes me feel better. I liked to be pleased gently; not roughly but if you require that of me then you shall have it. 1 in particular knows that about me and he does a good job of not using it against me. giving me just enough tease to turn me on but follows my rules so he's worthy enough for me to satisfy him for a job well done. What can i say i work off of a rewards system and if you're good and obedient i reward you with my body. Am I wrong for wanting to live in the moment? to be in the moment even if it's something that's sexual? where does one draw a line...cuz like Tori Amos sings she "gives love" not blood. So do I. If fully unleashed i can be quite a handful so i introduce you to me in steps to see how much i can reveal about myself to you. I don't want to scare you but me being in a lustful mood has only been witnessed by 3 people and that is why they are both still around. But atlas, i was still in control of my urges and was holding back so i guess 2 don't count but the last one he thought that i was beautiful that i became his favorite. i became the person he groomed me to be. I became the fuck puppet he wanted of me. I learned to claim my orgasms. that it was OK to tell your partner what to do and how to do it. that you are entitled to orgasms each time you have sex. that fantasies are good things to have and if acted upon explain to others involved so no feelings get hurt. that playing adult games is perfectly aright and that me wearing scantly clad outfits is perfectly natural. yes that one taught me to be comfortable with that side of me and thus not controlling it but working with it to give it what it needs so that I can function on a daily basis. At least this is my human nature a ball of raw untapped sexual magnetism that inspires lust. how fucked up is that? So when you encounter me it'll be low key and very faint but once you begin to focus in on it you come to realize that it is just being masked very well so that more do not pick up on it. But while I'm dancing it lights up my whole entire body and emanates from within me and my true nature is revealed. Try as i might to deny this part of myself it has been with me since i was young and we are at least one now due to understanding. And no this side of me is more selective of who goes in me than i am... she just wants to orgasm I want everything else before and after. its a good mix don't you think?...
